I am going to cut to the chase here. I pe’ed on a stick on Thursday and got two lines (one of which is barely visible to the naked eye, only frequent user would see it). YAY? Immediately I called my RE’s office and headed over for a Beta test. Unfortunately the beta came back negative. Usually a pregnancy will show up in blood work prior to showing up on a dip. My RE assumed the sticks were faulty and cautioned me not to get too excited. Too late, I think.

Friday, I wake up and do it all over again. Only this time, my second line is twice as dark and I am feeling a bit more optomistic that a mistake with the sticks wasn’t made. I call back the RE’s office to let them know and to ask about the progesterone. My RE lets me know my progesterone is great and not to worry, but truly not to put any faith in this pregnancy because there is only about a 2% chance that it is not chemical. I should come in next week for some blood work to see if anything is showing up yet.

I cannot go around depressed about something that hasn’t happened (meaning a miscarriage), but I feel like I can go around being positive in the hopes that the blood work was wrong (which is possible) and that my miracle can provide fruitful. I am looking for one more miracle to add to this one. I don’t think it is too much to ask for.

Despite all that I have gone through, I do still believe in miracles and as long as my body holds onto this pregnancy, I believe additional miracles are possible. Any prayers would be greatly appreciated and will keep you all posted if numbers start rolling in.

I have been going to acupuncture for a few weeks now. And since I don’t know what is normal, I am starting to get a little tired of needles sticking in my legs and not being able to move.

I have read that there are not supposed to be any side effects and it is not supposed to be painful. I beg to differ on both sides. The first visit was so painful, I thought at one point my leg was going to fall off. I guess it doesn’t help that I do not like needles and can feel each and every needle sticking in my leg for an entire half hour each and every visit. After the first visit I couldn’t walk properly for a full day and after each other visit I feel a little off for a few hours after. And by off I mean scattered in a should I really be driving myself home kinda way.

At my last visit the last needle hit a nerve. Yep, a nerve. The needle was on the outside of my ankle just above the bone, but it send a nerve in the bottom of my foot crazy. It hurt when he put it in, then stopped, then it hurt when he took it out. It was ok for a day but then, I was kneeling yesterday and the pain in my foot was unbelievable. Right now the nerve is throbbing accross the bottom of my foot. And my foot is resting up on an ottoman. Is this good? Should I be worried that the once best acupuncturist is getting a bit old and perhaps not as sharp as he used to be?

Oh yes and the herbal tea. OH the herbal tea. Made me so sick I had to request herbal tablets. I tried so hard to drink the stuff, but just could not get it down at all. Oh what we are willing to go through. And honestly I am not sure he was treating me for the right things. At first he was treating me for miscarriage, then I explained again that Hubby should go too, so he changed it up a bit. Hubby only has to drink the tea, no needles for him, typical. Anyhow, not sure about this whole thing. And just hoping to get some feedback before continuing on.