A few years ago now, I wrote myself a list of things to do before I was fourty. Sadly, it was in an old daytimer at work and although it is probobly in the basement in a box, I don’t feel like digging it out right at this moment. Instead I thought I would see if I could remember all ten things.

I am 35 going on 36 and I think I wrote it when I was 30 or 31, thinking I had lots of time.. heh heh.

10 Things – Before 40:
1. Have a Baby – DONE!! J was born August 2003.

2. Have a Million Dollars – not quite.

3. Go Surfing – DONE!! Surfed Ocean City, Maryland August 2002. Would have been going again in August, but had to cancel that. Pregancy and surfing do not go hand in hand.

4. Write a book – started, but not complete. Surprised that this is one of my ambitions? Don’t be, I may not always write so stellar here because these are my thoughts, but I can write and graduated with a concentration in English from Ottawa U.

5. Get Published – writing a book and getting published are two entirely different things, I can accomplish one without ever getting the other done, but hopefully I will get both done in the next four years!

6. Do some modelling – people have asked me through the years why I don’t model. I think it is my height and blonde hair that make people ask. It isn’t for lack of trying. I have been to a few agencies, but so far no takers. I will admit that I didn’t go full force with the portfolio, etc. If I had received enough interest that would have been my next step. I will also admit that I am not skinny enough, but I was always hoping to do some of the ‘real life modelling’ that some of the Canadian magazines are more on par with.

7. Get Back to England and France – We lived in England when I was 6/7 and travelled to France. I like to say for my seventh birthday, but in truth it was for the family, not just me. We were there a year and it wasn’t the greatest year. For a long time I never wanted to go back, but after working with a guy from England he renewed my interest and I would love to go back now as an adult to see where we lived and to actually go up the Eiffel Tower. I figured we would be back again one day soon, so I did not climb the tower with my Dad and older sister, but sayed below with my Mom and Baby Sister. I do remember the Tower, the Arc du Triomphe, Le Palais deo Versailles and all the wonderful people that we met with my Dad’s wonderful French and touque with a Canadian maple leaf on it. That touque alone got us into two hotels where kids weren’t allowed. He still wears it every winter, with pride, although it is a bit ratty and has seen better days.

8. Own my own business – well technically I own two. But, I am closing one down as it has fulfilled its purpose and no longer works with being a SAHM. I am taking the other one a bit further. My goal is to have this second business set up entirely by the time my kids are in school. I am hoping to have a couple of extra years to build it up now ;). I currently have two clients and hope to add two more over the next year. To go full time at home my goal is to have ten clients. I want to be flexible enough that I can work from home and be here for the kids after school and if they are sick. I think I can do it, no scratch that, I know I can do it, I will just have a bit of extra time to figure things out, hopefully.

I can’t remember the last two, but will scratch my head as to what they were….

I first wrote myself a list because a successful business person I know told me that to make things work out he always wrote down his goals. As well, Oprah once had a show with women who were millionaires, and most of them all wrote themselves a million dollar check and stashed it away in a drawer. Years later when they made their first million they pulled it out as a reminder of what their goal was. I had decided that I should write out a few goals so I had something to strive for before I hit 40. I was worried I would get there and not a heck of a lot to show for the last 40 years. I am happy with the things I have accomplished so far. I will work on the rest over the next 4 years and hopefully all will come to fruition.

p.s going for beat number 4 very soon!!!

Today’s beta came back at 448.6 which is more than doubling. However, the Progesterone came back at 40.

I will get to supplement with some Prometrium, that wonderful lovely suppository, but I’ll do it! I will take 200mg three times a day, this is what I was taking during my experimental drug therapies that left me almost comatose. Since my body will be needing it, lets hope that I won’t be comatose. I took that much when I was pregnant with J and I was able to function so let’s see how it leaves us.

Today, I figured out that if I had a Grande Chai Lattée, non-fat, extra hot around 9am, the nausea really doesn’t hit until 1pm!

Off I go to my favorite coffee shop, let’s see if it works for the afternoon as well 😉